In this episode, we take a deep dive into Bill Gothard’s confusing—and often contradictory—definition of “convictions.” According to Gothard, convictions are unchanging, visible, and must be a core part of your daily life. But does that mean they can never evolve? And if a conviction doesn't look like something Gothard…
As I dive into the Taylor Swift history I’m a little surprised that she may have been a mean girl. Not because I find it unfathomable, but because her fans portray her very differently. Tell me Swifties, did this article get it right? https://www.thetimes.com/culture/music/article/taylor-swifts-early-years-by-the-people-who-knew-her-d98sn0ws3
In this episode, we wrap up the “What If a Father Has Already Failed?” page from the IBLP Men’s Manual and unpack how Bill Gothard weaponizes failure, parenting struggles, and spiritual guilt. Gothard teaches that if you’re failing as a father, it’s because of disobedience—and that dangerous logic keeps people…
In this episode, I share my perspective as a former cult member on Taylor Swift’s latest album and her public image shift. For years, Taylor has been framed as the “good girl” of pop culture—an image that left little room for her to be seen as a fully grown, sexual…
Join me live for a book club reading of The Body Keeps the Score by Dr. Bessel van der Kolk as we unpack what it means to heal from trauma after life inside the IBLP. This conversation is for survivors who are breaking free from harmful teachings and learning how…
Umbrella Rebellion is a podcast where we share our experience in the ATI/IBLP and fundamental cults. We are on a journey of healing and exposing the teachings that lead to and justify abuse. It is our hope that those who are experiencing abuse can find support and escape from it.…
The IBLP hair and appearance standards episode is live!
People say I’m “blaming” others for the rapture doctrine. I’m not. This is about accountability. Pastors should’ve told us the rapture’s 1800s origins long before Google existed. I share why holding leaders accountable matters—in church, in parenting, and even in government.
In the world before Google research was painstakingly slow. Encyclopedias, dial up internet, and even microfiche were all we had. That made it easy for powerful groups to gatekeep history from everyday people. I didn’t discover the real history of the rapture doctrine until decades later. 👉 Have you ever…
Struggling with AuDHD burnout, procrastination, or perfectionism? 💙 You’re not lazy — you’re human. Sometimes it’s about more than willpower—it’s about identifying barriers and asking for the accommodations you deserve. You’re not behind, and I’m proud of you.
Many IBLP and IFB cult survivors were educationally neglected. It is not your shame to carry, it was your parents responsibility to educate you. It’s never too late to pursue your dreams. #exvangelical #education #educationalneglect #cultsurvivor #pursueyourdreams
In the cult recovery space pushing through isn’t always safe for us. Above all we just need to prioritize our peace and health, but balance that with pushing ourselves when it’s just uncomfortable.
There is some serious trauma that was brought to the surface with this rapture gate 2025. Healing is a journey and sometimes trauma breaks through the surface unexpectedly.
In this video, I’m responding to a comment from one of my previous uploads and sharing why it’s so important to talk about the history behind harmful Christian cult teachings. These belief systems didn’t just change over time — they harmed generations of children, families, and survivors. Our mission here…
In this video, I’m responding to a comment from one of my previous uploads and sharing why it’s so important to talk about the history behind harmful Christian cult teachings. These belief systems didn’t just change over time — they harmed generations of children, families, and survivors. Our mission here…
Did you know about John Nelson Darby and being the father of the Pre Tribulation rapture? Did you know that this teaching has not been around for all that long? I had no clue until this Rapture scare of 2025 surfaced. I went down a rabbit hole and I share…
Is the rapture real or biblical? I talk about where the concept of the rapture originated from. It was not lost on me that this was in the tail end of the 2nd great awakening. This is also the time period Joseph Smith showed up. Do you think the 2nd…
I’m trying to start a new series Sunday Affirmations. Leave a comment about what you are proud of yourself about. If there is someone you are proud of tag them in a comment and let them know!
I share my experience as a chronically ill patient going to three ERs in one week. I got al the types of doctors, the mediocre one, the lazy one, and then the one who was phenomenal and made me feel heard and safe. This was one of the hardest and…
A commenter accused me of calling the Black Coroner racist. First of all, I said no such thing. It makes me wonder if the people that makes comments like this are racist. I have a suspicion, and I’m usually right. When you were one, you know how to spot it.…
