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This doctor’s video validated me in ways that I never imagined. If only every doctor could take the time to view the patient as a whole and not just the parts that equal the sum. Go follow her on TT holdingmypeemd is the user name. #chronicillness #childhoodtrauma #cultsurvivor

Dr. James Dobson passed away yesterday. There has been a flood of rejoicing of all the strong willed children who experienced harm because of his teachings and publications. Whatever you are felling and however you process this death is valid. Don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for processing this…

CNN interviewed Christian Nationalist Doug Wilson. Let's not mince any words here... Wilson is a cult leader. He is preying on vulnerable people to feed his ego.

In this episode, we examine three deeply troubling aspects of Bill Gothard’s teachings from the IBLP Men’s Manual. First, we look at how Gothard pairs scripture with a racially charged illustration—one that subtly reinforces harmful stereotypes under the guise of spiritual leadership. Next, we unpack his message to fathers, where…

In this episode, we continue exploring the IBLP Men’s Manual with a closer look at Gothard’s page “What If a Father Has Already Failed?” Gothard teaches that a father’s unfulfilled dreams can still come true—through his children. He uses the story of David and Solomon to suggest that kids should…

In this episode, we take a closer look at Bill Gothard’s teaching for fathers who feel they have failed. On the surface, Gothard’s message sounds encouraging: as long as a man keeps trying, he’s not truly a failure. But underneath, we find a pattern of minimizing real harm and turning…

In this video, I point out a troubling aspect of Bill Gothard’s teachings: the use of scripture alongside a racially charged illustration. While the racism might not be immediately obvious to everyone, as a former cult member, I can see how this image subtly reinforces harmful stereotypes within Gothard's framework.…

In this episode, we delve into Bill Gothard’s troubling teachings from the IBLP Men’s Manual, where normal childhood behaviors are labeled as rebellion, and natural curiosity is framed as spiritual defiance. We start with Gothard’s “Early Signs of Rebellion” checklist, which misinterprets typical developmental stages as threats to parental authority.…

In this episode, we take a closer look at a page from the IBLP Men’s Manual where Bill Gothard uses graphic artwork—often created by cult members—to reinforce a grim interpretation of Proverbs 30:17. The verse warns against mocking one’s father or despising one’s mother, and Gothard emphasizes it with disturbing…

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In this follow-up episode, we continue our look at Gothard’s “Early Signs of Rebellion” and find even more troubling ideas. From claiming that unanswered prayers or doubt signal rebellion to warning that kids who admire the “wrong crowd” are being corrupted, Gothard’s list leaves no space for honest struggle or…

In this episode, we begin examining Bill Gothard’s “Early Signs of Rebellion” checklist from the IBLP Men’s Manual. While he claims to identify warning signs of defiance, many of the behaviors he describes—like feeling tension with parents or expressing concern about favoritism—are actually part of normal childhood development. Gothard’s phrasing…

In this episode, we explore the surprising theological roots of Bill Gothard’s interpretation of a woman’s desire. First, we uncover the quiet influence of Susan Foh—a scholar whose work Gothard quietly borrowed to justify silencing women. Then we turn to his parenting teachings, where a strange list of cause-and-effect claims…

In this follow-up episode, we continue our analysis of Gothard’s “Why Do Children Rebel?” page from the IBLP Men’s Manual. While some of the parenting advice may initially seem helpful, Gothard’s wording twists reasonable ideas into rigid rules and reinforces a harmful pattern of blame. We’ll explore how even good…

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In this episode, we take a close look at Bill Gothard’s “Why Do Children Rebel?” page from the IBLP Men’s Manual. Gothard lays out a cause-and-effect list, assigning specific types of rebellion in children to particular failures of their fathers. While some underlying principles might seem like sound parenting advice,…

In this episode, we conclude our examination of Bill Gothard’s teachings on marriage and authority—focusing on a surprising source he quietly draws from: theologian Susan Foh. Though Gothard teaches that women should remain silent and not instruct men, he leans on Foh’s interpretation of Genesis 3:16 to justify the claim…

In this episode, we examine the damaging legacy of Bill Gothard’s teachings on marriage—teachings that placed heavy burdens on wives while offering little guidance for husbands. From his interpretation of the term 'helpmeet' to his unbalanced emphasis on female submission, Gothard’s doctrine has shaped generations of evangelical families. But behind…

We continue examining the IBLP Men’s Manual and Gothard’s claims about why wives “react.” This time, we focus on his interpretation of Genesis 3:16, specifically, his use of a lesser-known theory by scholar Susan Foh. Gothard cites her 1970s article to support the idea that a wife’s “desire” in the…